Thoughts: On Procrastination

The fact that I am writing this is proof enough that I am procrastinating on my project further. Why is that? Why do we procrastinate? I truly feel that a big portion of the reason is that we really don’t want to do what ever it is we need to complete. In my case.. this is definitely the reason. I reach a point with a project and I feel I’ve accomplished the part that I wanted to do.. so I never finish the rest.. or the rest becomes mediocre. The current project I’m supposed to be working on is an idea I’ve had in my head for two years.. I have it all drawn out.. but now I need to color it. Here is the other issue.. I haven’t used color pencil in almost 5 or 6 years. They used to be my medium of choice, but then arthritis made it a pain, a literal pain, for me to use them for any significant period of time. So I just colored for about an hour and my hand is killing me.. but I’ve made very little progress.. So I procrastinate further. So the fact that I don’t feel like working on it and the fact it hurts my hand, all work against this piece.. I will finish it someday.. but probably not for a long time. It’ll be something I work on sparingly. I’m looking forward to getting back to my beloved charcoal and pastels.. This has just been a painful reminder as to why I no longer use color pencil.